Lock Myself In A Room

I consider myself a very realistic person.

I know that unless I become the next Rowling or Martin I won’t have a career as just a writer.

However, I can find it really difficult to come home from work and write.

Currently, I am in grad school and I have two part time jobs (one might be full-time very soon). I’m also going to therapy once a week so I can try to keep my mental health in check. So, more often than not, when I get home from work or class, or doing whatever else I need to do, writing is the last thing on my mind.

Usually I want to eat dinner, or relax and watch Netflix, not force my brain to think about the complexities involved with writing.

I feel like I need to lock myself in a room and focus on nothing but writing.

I wish I could do that.

I’ve started to look at Writing Retreats but I feel like they’re all either too far away, interfere with school or I can’t afford them.

I try to get my writing on a schedule but I’m also just not someone who works like that. My creativity can’t be forced, or put on a time table.

Will I ever be a successful writer if I’m not able to change this aspect of myself?

Is it a matter of forcing myself to write, even when I don’t want to?